To Bubba

I once heard a story of a man who was very poor and starving, and after he passed, the next owners found out his house was sitting on one of the largest deposits on oil in the country. And so it is with you. You are blessed with good looks, high intelligence, great sense of humor, great social skills and you live in the best state in the best country in the world. You have all the ingredients to 'make the cake.' Yes, life has given you some hurdles, but eventually you have gotten over them. It hasn't been easy for you, I understand... The best thing you can do now is to believe that you can achieve your dreams, with God's help.
There are those out there that excel who have come out of much worse situations; kids from the ghetto who decide that they will not be another statistic like their peers. At my last job, there was a guy in his early 30's who had a liver transplant, and after going through the terrible hell with that, his body rejected it a year later. Being that he was so young, with a young child, they found him a new liver (right before he was going to die) and he got a new one. He then stayed in the hospital and had surgery, after surgery... His wife was told that he had less than a 10% chance to live. At the area they had worked on, his body was like ground meat, and the doctors said they couldn't operate anymore. They got to where they could only tape him together. He had thousands praying for him... I emailed his wife at the transplant hospital in Dallas. I told her to tell her husband Michael to decide and decree that he will LIVE and he will be in that less than 10% of people that makes it. And he will be healthy and fine. She told him. And that's when he started to finally start healing. When he eventually walked out of that hospital, all of the nurses were crying. They knew how fortunate he really was. And that was only a few years ago. He still has to be checked often, but I see him jogging around town, and he competes in the Olympics for transplant recipients - a rare breed.
Bubba, you must decide. You must believe. Declare it to be so.
In Jesus' name.

"Everybody loves a clown, so why don't you?" (song by Gary Lewis)

Ok, I just watched 'The Mentalist' where the killer was in a clown suit, and it got me thinking... When I was pregnant with my middle child, I was sure it was going to be a boy. (I got it exactly wrong on all three children.) And, at that time, the most popular baby lamp that everyone had, was a lighted clown lamp. Being the intelligent gal that I am, I had studied that babies love bright, primary colors, and that they love to see smiling faces. You're probably seeing that I deduced the clown theme for the nursery. And alas, Alex has had a hatred for clowns ever since. (As a matter of fact, she's the one that was scared of Santa too, and sobbed if she got near him, but then some of the fake mall Santa's are pretty scary...)

So, this one's for you, Alex!

Jesus said, "I tell you the truth, unless you change and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven."

"If you get the chance, I hope you dance."

If you haven't noticed, dancing is back!!

"Memory is a way of holding onto the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose." - The Wonder Years

I miss the 80's... Yes, I was younger and I certainly miss that.

But I also miss Ronald Reagan. Wow, things were good when he was president.

I miss things being carefree.

I miss the music.

I miss my kids being little.

I miss being skinnier.

I miss my parents.

I miss my grandparents.

I miss people being optimistic.

I miss the country being more united.

I miss hope....

"All the king's horses and all the king's men..."

I've been watching the news today about the gynormous oil spill in the Gulf of Mexico... like Katrina, it's such a helpless feeling, knowing there's absolutely nothing I can do. All those thousands of gallons a day... unbelievable.... (sigh) It does make you wonder how something like this could happen. Some people are even saying sabotage since the radical left is so opposed to drilling. And somehow, the way to close off the opening in case of emergency did not work...

I think everybody's in shock, but we had better start praying that they figure out a way fast to close off the opening. They are saying today, that it might ruin certain areas for DECADES... ugh.

Now I'm hearing $4.00/gal. gas by summer...

Team Sandra

Ok, I feel the need to comment about Sandra Bullock (even though I don't know her.) I've often thought if there was a movie about my life, who would I like to play me. It's ALWAYS been Sandra Bullock, there was never a thought of anyone else. She just reminds me of myself... she seems real. She seems nice. She seems loyal. She seems like one of us. I guess that's why so many women relate to her. She's self-deprecating, and that's refreshing. She gives a lot to charity, and we all try to imagine if we hit the jackpot, (or, in her case, hit the jackpot in acting) that we would do the same. Heck, if I had the connections (and wealth) she has, I would adopt a wonderful baby too as a single mom.

Being from Texas, we hear her name often since she has a house in Austin, and restaurant too. She used to drive out to the hill country too, and there would be amusing stories of her walking into these dives out in the country. It just convinced me that she's real and not so into herself.

It's the Jesse James thing that interests me the most. She obviously loves him, that's for sure. He's the only guy she's thought that was worth it to say 'I do' to. (Even though his ex-wife is a porn star...) And then, just after they've adopted a baby, and she wins an Oscar, his latest mistress goes public.... real public.

I cannot imagine the humiliation in a regular marriage, but to be so public?? And have a papparazi frenzy follow your every move? And try to allay the fears of your darling step children, who are also horrified with all of the events, even when you're not their real mom. And watch as your entire life is turned upside down... I have an entire new respect for this woman. She has figured out what is obvious to the rest of us, that her husband is a serial cheater and probably isn't going to change. That he risked her life by having sex with 4 or 5 other women in the five years they were married, and could have given her aids or other sexually transmitted diseases. It wasn't like these gals were secretaries... They were all wild childs with risky lifestyles. Yes, he didn't love them, but so what? He has a sex addiction, which is highly irresponsible, risky and disrespectful to his wonderful wife, who happens to be 'America's Sweetheart.' She realizes that he is not the husband he says he was, and thus will not be the father to her new baby that she thought he would be.

It's still hard, real hard to walk away from someone you love. But she knows it's the right thing, and since she's one of us, she wants to do the right thing.

Way to go, Sandra! We're on your side! Keep it up! It will get better.....