Glass Half Full...

Okay, I went to church this morning and gave myself a reality check. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself that I'm not on some great vacation like all the people on Facebook and Instagram. Too, we live in a wealthy small town of the Have's and Have not's and the Have's have the money to vacation.
Me? I'm going to be thankful for what I have, and I am so very thankful for that, even though I don't sound like it very much.
My epiphany today (since my pastor has been preaching on "Faith" for many weeks) is that God, my Father, is teaching me to live by faith. You see, I grew up in a household where our needs and wants were pretty much met. We did have the money for whatever was necessary. I always tell everyone my biggest regret in life was when I had just graduated from college and gotten my first job, and also applied to be a missionary for Campus Crusade for Christ. My non-churchgoing parents were very against it since they had just paid for my college education, and too, you had to go out and get the financial support yourself. That was the deal-breaker for me. It seemed like begging to have regular folks give money each month and sponsor a CCC missionary. I don't think that now, since I'm older and see that investing in people personally is a very cool thing, but with the way I was brought up, that idea at the time was extremely foreign and very scary.
Fast forward to today as a single older mother who is on straight commission in a dying industry. I'm looking for another job but nothing has turned up yet. I'm not going to switch towns since DD is a year and a half away from graduating. And God promises to take care of our needs and He cannot lie. His Word IS truth.
And random people keep giving me money that I don't ask for, and I try not to accept, but they insist. And it is always exactly enough for us to make it another week or two. His Word says, "Don't worry about anything, but pray about everything." And "For my God shall supply ALL your needs according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus." I am standing on His promises, it's all I can do. My best friend, who is also single and struggling, sent me $500 for Christmas. She has never done this and I felt guilty accepting it, but she insisted. Consequently I ended up in the ER twice this month with a copay of - you guessed it - $250 each time. Ugh. I had that money spent ten different ways, but... I need to be thankful that I had enough to pay the copays.
One of my church friend's six-year-old son had a seizure on Christmas day, and one of DD's friends had very major surgery a week before Christmas, and ended up back in ICU on Christmas day, so it can always be worse. Very much worse. One of my friend's mothers (whose husband died when we were 18 and left her with 4 kids, lots of bills, and zero money) used to wisely say, "there's always a worse story."
So true...

Make it happen

Well, it's here. The after Christmas let down.
Sigh.
Not only do I have to ALWAYS work in my stupid POS job on holidays etc. but I was SUPPOSED to get 10 business days (2 weeks) vacation and 3 sick days this year. I only had 2 days last January when DD's danceteam went to NYC and that's it!! I took NO sick days, and somehow my boss says I had no more time off since I went on "doctor appts" when DD is healthy as a horse, and we had like 2 dentist appts each. I'M SOOOO MAD!!!
And it depresses the hell out of me to see all these people on fabulous Christmas vacations!! DD's best friend just got back from a week in San Diego, her other friends were in NYC and now are in Denmark, some others are leaving tomorrow for NYC for the New Year's ball drop in Times Square (which I have ALWAYS wanted to do) and then there are tons of families who are snow skiing.
AAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
I'm sorry. I am definitely Wendy Whiner and Debbie Downer all in one crappy package. My Christmas was one of the worst I've ever had, and things aren't getting any better.
Well, I can tell you this.
I am going to make it happen.
I am going to change my life.
It is GOING to get better.
I declare it.
I am not living like this anymore.
I WILL take the bull by the horns.
Things ARE going to change.
I will WILL it into being.
JUST WATCH ME...

(Here are real pix of my friends on Instagram)

Merry Christmas 2013!

"You are free to choose, but you are not free from the consequence of your choice."

Okay, so I haven't posted because I didn't want to just put up something less than acceptable - life is just too busy, but after Christmas I can post away. And in January -- I'll be so terribly bored - just get ready for long posts then.
My weigh in on Duck Dynasty? Well, I guess it's all been said. My only comment now would be that it really encouraged me that there were so many people who have FINALLY had enough of this politically correct stuff and said enough is ENOUGH. Maybe it was the tipping point - I certainly hope so. And happening so close to Christmas?? All the more reason to have finally had it with the punks in our society who try to bully us into silence.
Yes, in America we have freedom - to an extent. We are only free to do what we want UNLESS it infringes on the rights of others (hello lawyers) and we base that on Judeo-Christian principles from the Bible. That's our society. We are not Egypt or Saudi Arabia, who have mostly Muslims, and they have a different standard which dictate that, say murder and lying and beating or killing your wife or child as an honor killing, are okay. The United States based our laws on God's laws in the Bible - such as the Ten Commandments, thou shalt not... murder, steal, lie, etc.
In essence we do legislate morality to a certain extent. We no longer legislate adultery as we mildly did in the court of our peers. We USED to sort of legislate homosexuality, with laws defining marriage as a man and a woman and there are still some laws on the books saying that anal sex is unlawful, but Americans have been accepting homosexuality for awhile now. But the militant homosexuals have been militant for years now, and will fight to the death. Now, if Phil Robertson even quotes the Bible on what God has to say about it, then they say it's "hate speech." So now the truth, according to God and the Bible, is even unacceptable to quote?? I read someone say that this story has definitely struck a nerve, and it will be decided on who will define what our freedoms really are.
California pastor Greg Laurie says, "What is being asked of Christians is not tolerance, but acceptance and endorsement of sin." And of course Obamacare has parts of it that say our government taxpayer money will pay for abortions for those that seek them, of which we say no! We will not pay for the murder of unborn babies. NO. Not on our watch.
God gives us Free Will. We have the freedom to sin or the freedom to serve Him. And we have the freedom to choose but don't have the freedom from those consequences. We really do reap what we sow, it's a built in "law" of this planet. Even if we sin, and later confess and truly are sorry, and repent and say we will never do it again, God forgives us, but there are still consequences. If you murder someone, and are really sorry, you will still suffer your penalty from the law.
The same holds true for all sin. There will always be consequences.
It's just that now we have to fight for where the line in the sand will be drawn and what we will and will not accept. Majority rules in our American society.
Choose wisely.

Vanity, vanity... all is vanity

Here are my tweets and comments from the last 24 hours, since life is going to fast right now.

-- Eyewitness to Hitler Warns Americans: "Keep your guns and buy more guns" - With all of the news lately, this may seem old to you, but always bears repeating - the U.S. is looking like Germany as Hitler came to power
-- Obama picks Gay athletes to represent U.S. in Sochi delegation, Olympics - I've read that Obama had a gay man nanny (manny?) and that he was in a group of gay men in a  black Chicago Church. He was against same-sex marriage when he was running for office but now, apparently is not...
-- Former Top NSA Official: "We Are Now in A Police State" - This is so disturbing. It's the book 1984, only worse. Personally I think Edward Snowden is a hero and not a traitor for divulging this to Americans. What good is it doing? This is the government that our fore fathers wrote the Constitution about - a power hungry group wanting to rule the masses...
-- Have you seen the White House "Christmas" card? - Hmmm, no surprise here. The card doesn't mention the birth of Christ (or anything Christian for that matter.) It does have the signatures of the entire family including the two dog's paw prints...
-- Barbara Walters to Piers Morgan: We thought Obama would be 'the next messiah' - Oh, Barbara. I realize you're in your 80's now, but when the word 'messiah' is used, people are going to talk. And, if I'm not mistaken, Barbara is Jewish, and Jews are still looking for the Messiah since they don't believe that Jesus was. To me, this makes it all the more disturbing. Was she kidding? Did she mean the real messiah that the Jews are looking for? Or was it a word used loosely, like someone to save this country from our racist ways??
-- Report: German Chancelor compares NSA to Communist Stasi during heated exchange with Obama - Good for her! She's standing up to the 'head of the free world' and isn't backing down.
-- Pro-Life Teacher Fired for Opposing Planned Parenthood - Again, not surprising in this current school climate, but disgusting anyway...
-- New U.S. Army Manual Orders Soldiers Not to Criticize Taliban - WTF? Who are we fighting?? This regime's "war" on the military is unacceptable. Finally ex-military are standing up. Of course we have current politicians saying that all ex-military should have their guns taken away...
-- 'Tolerance' now means government-coerced celebration - Duh.
-- School Tries to Suspend Five-Year Old for Making 'Gun Gesture' with Hand - Okay people. 
We have GOT to draw the line somewhere and fight against this kind of idiocracy! Same goes for fighting schools like the one last week that officially labeled the six-year-old a sexual harrasser for kissing his 'girlfriend' on the cheek at school
-- Gay Rights Mag Names Pope Francis 'Person of the Year' Despite Same-Sex Marriage Stance - Yes, and it's because this pope is sounding much more liberal than any in my lifetime...
-- Boy Suspended for Year for Hugging Teacher - This makes me so mad! And sad for that little boy, who was African-American by the way. I'm surprised this wasn't called racist. But come on -- hugging a teacher??
WHERE IS SANITY?!???

Funny Christmas Photos

Freaky Friday every Freaking Day

This is the craziest time of year; every year I wish we could divide all December activities and advance half of them to January since it's dead and dreary... And my high schooler, DD, has been half sick since the last football game where it was raining and in the twenties. It's our busiest time at work, there are parties for every organization (and gifts are expected), and I still have to get my Christmas shopping done. Which is a challenge - because I have less money this year than almost every before (thanks Obama :(
Here are some random thoughts since DD was so sick last night, I could not post. On Obama's selfie. My reaction was early on before all the media jumped in, and all I could think of was how class-less he is. He was at a MEMORIAL (funeral) and was acting like a teenager. Evidently there is a tumblr site called "selfies at funerals" which had closed, but reopened it yesterday to post the ultimate "selfie at a funeral." And then I had all of the "what if's" - thinking that if Romney had won president, how classy he would have been in the White House, with his intelligent, classy, gracious wife and children. And how he would have probably gotten the economy going in the right direction, and things wouldn't be teetering on the brink of disaster.
There are just TOO many things to worry about now. ALL news is scarier than I've ever seen in my Baby Boomer lifetime. Black is white and down is up. Everything is turned around and common sense is completely gone. We are told by Congress to "pass the bill to see what's in it" and every SINGLE day we are losing freedoms. This president has turned into a dictator and no one is stopping him. He has an Executive Order almost every week, and has started firing military officers who don't agree with him. The NSA is watching our every move. Frankly it's looking like Germany when Hitler came to power, but none of the kids know this sort of thing, as history is being rewritten through the eyes of liberals. And they are liars, huge liars, and leave out big, important parts of stories to mislead us. There are no checks and balances any more, since the media became lapdogs for the libs. I've gotten extremely political on Facebook, but no one seems to want to hear it. They want to see recipes, and "fluff" and cute photos. Almost everyone wants to stick their head in the sand and pretend it's all not happening. It's the new American way. Distract yourself with electronics and live in a dream world. It's easier. Even Hollywood is noticing that people just want "fluff" in movies - I like to call it "bubblegum for the brain." There are very few "smart" movies, and the ones out there that are, don't get a big box-office draw.
Something else upsetting today was hearing about Elian Gonzales. That story haunted me when it happened. It was the beginning of all of this government intervention stuff, and Janet Reno and gang broke the door down like he was some kind of international fugitive, when in reality, he was a little boy who had escaped Cuba on a boat and saw his mother die in the process. It was all nauseating. And now that boy is so brain-washed and ruined by Castro, that the dye is cast.
Anyway.
I'm sorry to be Debbie Downer today.... maybe that's why I'm not posting more?
I'll try to be more positive in future posts...

Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall set you free

Just a quick post to say that I am a truth seeker - and it is refreshing to see some of the NON mainstream media tell the truth about Nelson Mandela instead of being politically correct. Do I appreciate that he was passionate about his cause? Yes. But he was a communist. He was made an offer to be released from prison if he would renounce terrorism but he would not. His wife was involved in 'necklacing' which was a brutal way to kill and torture their enemies. And most of his cohorts were hell-bent on revenge. 

Anyway.

Not the saint you'll hear about from his ginormous funeral tomorrow.

I'm so tired of all the lies....

Christmas parade 2013

Easy Money

Okay, I'm at work trying to sneak in a post. It's been crazy lately but not in a good way. Monday night I went into tachocardia and drove myself to the hospital. My heart rate was in the heart attack range for 2 and a half hours, so it really exhausts me;  most liken it to running a marathon (which I have never done or ever plan to.) I've had tachocardia since high school, and I HATE it. Arrrggggg.
Anyway, it sets me back when I go - and not only physically, but financially. Double arrrgggg...
I've put up my tree (which is kind of funny, since we got it at Wal-Mart because it was cheap, but it is so crooked, that it's beyond the 'leaning Tower of Pisa.") But whatever... I also put up lights outside, decorated inside, turn on Christmas music whenever possible, and watch sappy Hallmark Christmas movies because they always have happy endings like the old Doris Day movies in the sixties.
Sigh.
This is my way of combatting all of the infuriating news such as today, when I read that a law professor no less, is saying that Obama is exactly what the constitution was trying to protect us from, and that Obama has stated that he "can kill any American anywhere." I watched a video yesterday from Daphne Lee, a woman who calls herself "just a mom" who waited 8.5 hours to talk for less than 5 minutes at some City Council meeting in Arizona, but was extremely informed, and distressed that laws are being passed that the government can pick up any American without due process or  not allowing us to be innocent until proven guilty. She was all over (conservative) sites on Facebook and is one of my new heroes. Today I read that "the State Department spends 2.5 million on art for foreign embassies including 1 million for 1 statue."
Say what??
I am SO SICK of this government, while we are freaking broke, spending millions on this sort of thing, and even worse, sending BILLIONS to Muslim countries that hate us, and want to destroy us. So are we borrowing this money from China to give to these people??? They treat our hard-earned tax money like it's Monopoly money, and then they just go print more and more to give away. And not even to Americans.
Then I read today that the "U.S. Government is considering a 'mysterious' 600 acre China-themed city in New York's Catskills.
Somebody DO something!!!!! This is ridiculous!!! I could sit here and post all day about the injustices that are criminal and how something needs to be done, but WHO is going to do it?? Who will spearhead this?? The libs have George Soros, and clearly others who are pushing through their agenda, with money to throw at it.
Clearly we do not...